Grrrrrrrrrr.......

My tummy has been aching since noon. I've eaten po kai wan but it ain't getting better. Darn. Think I better don't go for the meet-up with beh and zz and a-jia and hoe later. Sianz.

Think from the other side! Yesterday burned a big whole in wallet already. No harm staying at home la k. Next week is rather hectic also. ;)

I like being busy nowadays. It keeps me moving. And it feels good. Now my aim is to get motivate and start exercise. Have been lazy for like.. months? Damn I could see the chocolate bar lying in fron of me on my desk mocking at me.

Tomorrow is a brand new week!! Things will turn better!! I don't care and I just believe in it. That's it. ;)

Little world of MY own

Went out with Denise today. We are not those friends who must meet very now and then, but we are close friend. Close enough to share each others' burden and secrets. And yea she's single like me also. If not who else you think that would be available during the weekend? Apparently not those already got attached.

Denise is usually outgoing. And friendly. And nice to everyone. Oh yea she could be mean to those guy who she thinks are a bit "idiotic". She always tell me that being outgoing is imperative la, practice on people you meet la, smile, and say hello and ask 'em how they're doing la, and bla bla.

But I'm just being low profile. Okay you can say that I'm shy. But I'm happy to be in just the little world of MY own.

With no disturbance. ;)

Departure

Maybe the word "departure" is too hard a word to use 'coz it's not the end of the world. And all she did is to leave the work place she dislikes so much.

I would hate that as well, if I'm in her shoe.

Sumi finally decided to leave her current job, in which her lab was just next to mine. Almost all of us who did our orientation together with her, after getting know her more, know that she's not going to stay on at this job for long.

And we are right. She stayed for only 1 month and 1 week.

It's kindda strange for me to feel like someone is indeed a close friend to me for only this short period. And Sumi is definitely one of them. There are too many times that we share very same view on some issues that we blurted out the very same words at the very same time (except when it comes to her "sweet guy". Urgh.). Hmm weird enough. And she's Indian. As of, my English a bit cannot make it lehz. Weird right.

She says it's because we are both Cancerian. Funny. I never know she's so into horoscope given her characters.

I know I'm gonna miss her. Now there are nobody to chit-chat and ha-la with while I need to wait for the bloody 10 minutes centrifugation time.

L.A.T.E

Today is the very first time in which I'm the last one to leave in the lab. Whole lab. Can't imagine huh? 'Coz I'm always so damn impatient in almost everything I do. Hmm correction. Ok being late is one of the bad habit I'm working on k. ;) I do hope that I can pass my probation here. Peacefully.

And now I'm waiting for the centrifuge to finally finish spinning. Ghee I hate centrifuge. It has funny smell most of the time. and each centrifugation takes a good 10 minutes. Gee, What the hell I'm suppose to do in this 10 min? I'll be so frustrated if I need to take off my glove, do my things, and later wear glove again. Oh yeah I hate the glove also.

Talking about that, HBao told me that methanol actually can go through glove and evaporate on our skin. Goodness. No wonder I keep thinking that my hands are getting rough. Think I'll need SKII soon. For my hands. Shit.

Tired. Late. And hungry.

Rants

Looking back one of the previous posts in my previous blog and I saw this:

"Damn it! I wonder will he try to break the ice? Shit. I’ve been buying things from Cold Storage HV branch. At this rate going, I’ll soon be very broke indeed! Hmph!"

Was written sometimes back in Jun/Jul/Aug (Sorry! My sense of timing is sucks.) Then again now working full time and quit SSTei already so I don't shop at Cold Storage HV that often now. But I think I will remember this cashier guy ba. Of course not-daring enough to say for the rest of my life la. Then again it was he who make me feel like going-to-work-also-not-bad-what, although it's only for like.. 10 seconds? wahahah how come I sound like little innocent girl having crush on someone.. Well I did.. Well I didn't. It doesn't matter anymore.

I think he did notice me back then. But he quit already way before I quit SSTei. Ha funny. I shall not talk about this anymore in the future.

Bless you cashier guy.

聪明反被聪明误版 << 国王的新衣>>

P国王终于穿上了他那件话说只有聪明人才看得见的新衣，在大街上游行。人民"看"了国王的新衣后，不但没有人取笑他，反而称赞国王穿衣大方得体，非常好看，因为人民都认为他们自己是聪明的。从此以后，在P国里大量出售了国王商标的 "只有聪明人才看得见" 的隐形衣服。

自从隐形衣服在市场上大量出售后，人民纷纷都把隐形衣穿上，以便表示他们的聪明与大方。不久以后这已传遍全世界。来自世界各地的商人也不约而同的来到P国购买"只有聪明人才看见"的隐形衣回到他们的祖国。自此，全世界的人民已经兴起了"不穿衣服风"了。而P国王也在这场买卖生意中得到了不少利益。不出三个月时间，P国王也被全世界的人民认为是"女人的救世主"，因为全世界的色狼已经灭种了。为此，P国王得了一张金文凭，被誉为对世界最有贡献的人。

好景不常在，世界气温突然严重下降。人民纷纷购买大量的隐形衣服，准备取暖。不出三天，全世界的人民差不多全都被冻死了。现在大家才知道，他们一直以来在做着愚蠢的事。 "不穿衣服风" 在此正式结束。

..emotional perplexity..

Sometimes I feel like I’m standing on this really narrow bar stick hanging somewhere high up there, trying hard to keep balance ‘coz any mishap leads to very painful fall. Balance in family, friends, work, and personal life. I must admit that I’m damn a quiescent person who don’t really like to mix around most of the time and so personal life is so important to me. Good thing I don’t have to make commitment to relationship (yet). It actually doesn’t really matter to me, but yet it DOES matter ‘coz most of the time it won’t just affect me, but others around me as well. This equilibrium sense, not easy to describe ‘coz it cannot be seen, heard, or felt. But it’s haunting me, in a way. I guess the vestibular apparatus deep inside my inner ear is not functioning well enough?

Damn... I'm gonna fall I'm gonna fall....

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Sometimes I wonder if everyone around me will grow up to this certain age and start acting old. As in, really old, where conversations are mostly in the past tense, starting every story with introductory retrospections on past events that had taken place in that halcyon days of youth and using words like "used to", "if I was younger", "in my younger days" or "you are too young to understand" too frequently. Or even develop a liking for those newborn monstersbabies that cry too much?? Couldn’t imagine how life can possibly go on that way. Suddenly I could understand how Peter Pan feels.

あたたかい

あたたかい

Anyone with the faintest knowledge about Hiragana in Jap knows that it's pronounce as 'atatakai'. It means 'warm'. Despite the fact that I appear cold to others-- well, some of them. It's like a barrier, or rather, a protective shield I need to built up around me, in order not to get hurt.

Anyway hope that by keeping this blog, if long enough, will somehow or rather, keep the inner side of me warm. This city and this people, are getting cold.
And so as the weather.

Samui. Cold.